A heaviness washed over me just after I put CG down for a nap today. Ugh. I could feel myself turning to the what if’s. What if I have an all day funk? What if I don’t turn it around? Oh crap, what if next I’m arguing with Mike, messing up this week and letting myself down? What if I need to go into total retreat, nest, self care mode? 

It felt like out of nowhere and for no reason I was just funky (and not in my fave genre of music way). But was it really out of nowhere?

I feel your energy. You are confused, disappointed, hurt, scared, angry, overwhelmed, disgusted, pissed off. Lean in and feel it. Allow yourself the time you need to feel all the feels. And then release it. 

The world needs your light. We are being presented with an opportunity to rise, to choose love, to hold each other and come together.

This not-so-random bottle of Bacardi and Drew Wonderful and the longest post ever. 

This is not the first time I found out a friend had passed from signs coming to me. It seems like spirit finds a way to get through to me, even if it takes a while. 

I had the most beautiful talk with my team last night on the floor of the shower. 6 men from my life that have passed on, came forward. When they walked this earth they all saw me (or at least treated me!!!!) as the highest version of myself. Which is really moving to realize. Well 5 of them did, 1 passed before I was born. I felt them all so clearly. They loved me then, love me now and are definitely guiding me. 

Do you realize that you already have everything you need inside of you to tap into your own light and energy?

You have energy radiating through your body. Right now.

You can teach yourself to using it for healing, cleansing and energizing.

Do you you ever look outside of yourself for permission to do something?

Like you don’t really go for it or even relax unless someone gives you the signal?

💫 Can you find a way to love and accept even your darkest shadows?

💫 Can you trust it’s also ok to change what you can and accept what you can’t?

💫 Can you see your past as a stepping stone and know you are not who you were or what happened to you?

It’s ok to be happy or not happy. Hurting one minute and not the next and then back to hurting. 

There aren’t any rules. There’s no perfect emotion sized box to fit in.

Continuing to practice receiving.

It is in my nature to give, care for, hold space, help. It comes so easily. 

The receiving for me takes much more ‘work’. It’s outside my comfort zone.

Right after making a Facebook post that August was weird, that I’ve felt off and not as sparkly this month - it got even weirder. 

My every birthday wish for years was for a healthy happy baby. The little goddess has exceeded my every expectation - for how much love I would feel, fun we could have, and how much work it would be. Now I get to turn all my wishing magic into what I want next for my life. ❤️

Let’s not go through life believing what others say and do is about us. Let’s practice detaching from taking things personally, so that we find freedom in the place where we don’t have trigger reactions and emotional responses to someone else’s monkeys. 

We hear this all the time, but have you been able to successfully incorporate ownership for your feelings and reactions? Or do you give that power away? Who dictates your happiness?

I was feeling myself today. However when I went to share a photo, all the feelings shifted. 

I went from strong and confident to anxiously considering what people would think of me. I went from sharing a body positive post to nervous of criticism that I was full of myself. 

For days I found myself feeling tired and triggered by things that typically wouldn’t affect me. I was aware of what felt like a hormonal or emotional imbalance.

I was having a stressful afternoon. For no good reason really. Just feeling sensitive, vulnerable, triggered and anxious. It’s the most beautiful day and I knew if I didn’t shift something, I was going to miss it. 

That can sound counter intuitive, but it's true. If you're walking down a dark alley alone at night, don't run toward what feels scary. That's an actual and rational fear. However, know the difference between that and irrational fears.

I'm so excited to share with you a few of my beloved New Years traditions! It's a NEW freaking year! It's like going to a brand new school, you get a fresh start. Yes you can give yourself a fresh start any damn time you want (and I highly recommend it). But it's bigger than that - the whole world is saying fresh start!!! Energetically we are all feeling ready to release 2015 and step forward into a magical new world filled with possibility. Take note of any ideas that come to you during this time, ones appearing now are not yet tainted by self sabotage and that dreaded inner bully. We are feeling limitless and these ideas are in alignment with our true desires!

The highlight of my weekend was meeting Judy.  

Saturday morning I wasn't feeling great, but I was pulled to venture out in the rain and get supplies. On my way to rent a movie, I felt a calling toward a different redbox location than I was headed. I've learned not to question this inner guidance, so I allowed myself to be redirected. I soon found out why. 

There has been a shadow hanging over all the beautiful things occuring in my life. I haven't allowed myself to fully celebrate and enjoy the huge steps and accomplishments in my business and personal life. I know you have been there at some point, as well. The place where all the amazingness doesn't feel as magical and shiny as it could. 

A year ago today, I was stressing about my first sugar free Thanksgiving. I was filled with major anxiety thinking about all the dishes once over consumed and were now forbidden. I was only a couple weeks into this shift and it was rocky and fulled with anxiety. If you are or have ever been a certifiable sugar addict, you know my pain.